Cold Hands & Silly~Bands

Well, it*s been a rough past week for me...(Dj is of course, strong and steady as ever)

I feel like it*s been months since I was Nannying and pulling in an (impressive) income. I loved contributing...it was the best feeling throwing in 1,000 checks into our bank account...now...nada.

I have to figure out things to do to keep myself occupied and not feel like a waste of space on planet earth...
...we had a couple days under 95 degrees so Rambo and I took those opportunities to go out for some long walks exploring around our area...it*s going to be SO nice when the temperature starts going down...I cant wait to experience fall here.
...I*ve done numerous crafty projects...and given some needed attention to wedding planning. All of this kinda sux due to the fact that I*m all alone. I can*t drive to a friends house, I can*t drive to just hangout with family...it*s tough. Dj leaves around 6:30 and comes home around 8 every night...6 days a week...sooo...he*s busting his booty...and I*m here searching for things to pass the time with. It feels horrible. The gym still has not gotten back to me even after me calling to follow up...so not only do I not know if they will be able to find a job for me there, but I*m not signed up for the classes I really wanted to sign up for. I think I*m going to go in Tuesday to get a 7-day pass to test it out there and sign up even if they haven*t gotten back to me. I also was waiting to sign up for volunteering till i found a job and would know my schedule but I think I*m going to have to go ahead with it without knowing. I just need something.


My b-day is NEXT WEEK...and Dj got us both bikes so we could ride around DC together finally...we just couldn*t wait any longer and had an AMAZING time. I think we must have rode down every street of DC at least 3 times..it was insane...if you want to figure out streets and your area..get a bike.
It looks like we are going to be able to come home(NY) for this long weekend...and we will have a LOT to fit in as always. But we are both looking forward to that.

Today Dj and I drove up to Silver Spring for Dj*s first training session...where they went around in a circle and said how many hours each member pulled in the day b4...the other guys answered...8...10...18... "Wow guys, great job!" It comes to Dj*s turn..."Well...40" ..."Wait, what?!...you know that's nearly impossible right?" "Well, we are down a couple guys, so it had to be done." They were extremely impressed, as am I with how tireless he is. He really blows me away everyday with how hard he works and how he comes home everyday with a huge smile on his face. The training session was catered by panera and Dj brought me back a sandwich that just rocked my world...while he was in the meeting I drove around exploring...I wanted to go see the Nat Geo building but that was too far...I DID get to a star bucks though and had my first pumpkin spice frap of my year...I cant even express how glorious it was. I had forgotten.

Other things i had forgotten...that i have been reminded the past few days...through different things...was how no matter how tough i think MY day is going...i have it EXTREMELY easy. EVERYONE is struggling. In one way or another...i*m not alone. During this time of "nothingness" I have actually turned on the TV for the first time and watched Extreme Home Makeover...yes, i DID yell out "Move That Bus"...in case you were wondering. I also read about 500 inspiring short stories on Gives Me Hope.com...it really puts everything into perspective and reminds me that even if i feel like I*m doing "nothing"...i can take that time and do even ONE small thing to help someone else...and that makes the time more than worth it. I have a HELL OF A LOT to be grateful for...and while sometimes I feel useless...life Isn*t about proving yourself all the time...but you CAN always find ways to brighten up someone else's day, which will in turn, make yours.